This will be a very image heavy post so hope you’re ok with that…again I think we’re past the days of overloading people if you don’t cut…still let me know and I’ll edit it needed.
So let’s see what I can share with you…first of all you all know I am going to be the world’s best therapist someday…ok maybe not the best but pretty darn close. Hear is a secret though, if I were to marry into money and didn’t have to work or if therapy was outlawed or something what I would LOVE to be is a cookie/cake maker. Have I shown you some of my cookies/cakes? Let me see what pics I can find…ok right now nothing too impressive so don’t go hiring me from this, but is a few fun items
Now I will tell you about my wonderful gifts lol. My sis came over to stay the night on Christmas Eve, it wasn’t too eventful, we watched movies and ate pizza. I began working on my grandma’s scarf…I haven’t crocheted in over a year but thought it would just come back to me. It wasn’t a disaster per se but I surely could have used more time and using a new more complicated yarn was probably not a good idea anyway. Here’s a picture…
I got the one thing I wanted most, which was a new digital camera. The one I had before was a good girl and did her job but it was time for an upgrade. Where I was using like 4x zoom and a memory card that held 256mb or whatever. Now I have 10 mega pixel bleh bleh bleh happiness. You’ll see the pretty pictures. Now when I push the button to take a pic the camera actually takes the picture instead of thinking about it and then sometimes thinking it would be a good idea. HAHA. So what else do we have hear ladies and gentlemen? We have candies, scarves, USB HUB, wireless mouse, xmas barbie collections, new purse, digital frame, giraffe tea pot, new slipper boots….not quite Merrell but those are coming, new family quilt from grandma and sweaters. We also have pics of Emily and her stocking, sister and some of her gifts (I made the “farmville” blanket) and Mom getting in on the fun too.
I don’t know if this is a very accurate way to talk about myself…but it’s how I’ve been feeling lately. Allow me to explain.
Drew Barrymore (IMHO) is an amazing actress. And BTW I made the graphic a few years ago. She adds life and character to any role she takes on and I highly doubt anyone could carry some of her people as well as she has. She’s a very kind person and I’m always impressed with her interviews and the way she deals with her personal life. However, she is not an A-list celebrity. She does not take on award winning roles and I do not think she isn’t talented enough for them, I think she chooses not to take them on. Perhaps because of the pressure and demands, perhaps because of her past with sex and drugs? Who knows? I think she is more than able to go above and beyond her fulfilled potential if she ever wanted, but I doubt she ever will and part of that is what makes her such a great actress. A person, who knows their logical limits and shines within those instead of seeking something “more” as way of showing others up, is rare.
I feel this is the direction my running and sports is taking. I think, in fact I know I have the ability to be fast, if I worked at it. I probably have the ability to start being well known for my age, and maybe someday overall. I thought this is what I wanted, but then I’ve come to realize what I really want, is to have fun and enjoy what I do. I thought being faster would be more fun, I thought going a longer distance would be more fun, and in ways these things WERE fun. I lost touch with saying HI to people though, I lost touch with looking at trees and looking at friends. I want to be a b0list runner. I want to take on roles I know are fun and I can add my own character to them. Sure I might be able to do something “better” by typical standards, but I need to live up to my own standards NOT everyone else’s.
I really LOVE half marathons. I know I can do a full, but why do one full when I can do 3-4 halfs? It’s just more fun for me this way. For NYE I’m taking Emme on my run with me. I know I won’t go very quickly, I know it’s not chip timed and I’ll be in the back. But lately at night we’ve been running a mile or so together and she is SO happy and I am SO happy being with her and sharing that moment. Races will come and go, but time spend with my puppy will always be cherished and time spent with friends should be cherished. I mean what if I get my way and I move in two years with a great job offer? Will I walk into a new city and talk about the time I shaved 15 seconds off my 5k? Or will I talk about the great races with the hills or the food or the adventure race stations where you play corn-hole?
All I know is I love being on break from school and I look forward to going back (a little) so I can get with the personal training. Maybe when I talk to someone professional and they can evaluate what my body is doing we can set something up I’ll be happy with?
I’m doing a race tomorrow actually. It’s a first annual and it’s just a fun run, but I am so excited for it. Going with my little sister and we’re going to dress up and sing carols. I hope we don’t freeze! It should be so pretty. I’m taking my camera.